Not too long ago I was speaking with the Zen teacher Norman Fischer, and we recalled our first meeting. I’d been at this Buddhism stuff for a good while, he noted. It’s true: it’s been two decades. And yet, I feel like a perpetual beginner. The late Shunryu Suzuki Roshi enjoined us to keep a “beginner’s mind” for, “In the beginner’s mind there are many possibilities, but in the expert’s there are few.” Such a mind will of course serve you well, but that’s not quite what I’m talking about. I’m talking more about feeling like a “failure” when it comes to meditation practice. Now, that’s something I’m an expert in! There’s a little secret in meditation, one that is revealed over the years (to folks like me at least): even if you really believe in meditation, and even if you really enjoy it sometimes, there will come a time when you let your practice lapse. And then you’ll have to begin again. And this cycle, like samsara itself, may well keep rolling on indefinitely. Welcome to the Realm of the Perpetual Beginner. There are a lot of us here! But there are ways to get back to our regular practice. The support and comradeship of like-minded friends (a sangha) can help a lot. Sometimes, going it alone works best. (It worked for the Buddha, didn’t it?) As our friend Norman has written in Lion’s Roar magazine, “If you want to meditate there is virtually no excuse not to.” And, even if you still find ways to avoid practice, Norman says, that might be fine: “Sometimes that’s the way to finally begin serious meditation practice: by not doing it for ten or twenty years, until finally there is no choice.” So let’s see what happens when we put down our excuses, and take a gentle, realistic, and committed approach to meditation practice. That’s when things will really get started (again). —Rod Meade Sperry, Editorial Director, LionsRoar.com P.S.: If you’d like a quick refresher on meditation basics, read or listen to the simple instructions on our How to Meditate page. |
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